Now it gets personal
I had a personal blog on Tumblr but I hardly did anything with it. Tumblr's so passe now, ZOMG, I wouldn't be caught DEAD posting to that thing!
Just kidding. I thought I'd give Posterous a spin to see how I like it. I actually created a Posterous blog way back in October of 2008 when Posterous was brand-spanky new: I posted once or twice and that was it. We'll see if I even have time to do anything with it this time around. I like that I can auto-post to Twitter and Facebook and all that. Verra kewel.
So when I say this is my personal blog, I really mean it. Like here's how personal: me and my wife are splitting up after being together for nearly 15 years and married for over 10 years. Some of you know me well enough to know something's going on and I may have mentioned it on occasion. Some of you are wondering what's the deal, and I don't feel like repeating myself to every person, so I'm writing this post.
We've always been an odd couple. She's older than me and when we got together in the early nineties, she already had 3 kids. They're all adults, now, and one has a child of her own, so that makes me a 40-year-old granddad (yes, I know, it's weird).
While my wife and I have been great for each other in many ways, we haven't been so great for each other in other ways. We thought that over time and with effort we could "fix" these differences, but nope. We're just different people, and we can't be what the other person truly needs. We know that now. Nobody cheated. Nobody's angry.
It is, however, sad and heart-wrenching and it's tough to be going through this. Good will come of it, I have no doubt, but I spend a lot of time staring off into space just wondering about things and feeling not a little bereft. I feel really emotional and it's hard to keep things under control and get my work done and all that (bills don't stop just because your relationship does), but I'm managing just fine. In some ways, good is already coming out of it. I can't believe all these hot women over 35 on Facebook who want me to meet them! ;-)
I still love her, she still loves me, we're friends and we always will be. Even though we couldn't continue and be truly happy, what we did share for these many years was way deep and very special--and it still is, but the nature of our relationship is changing. Soon we'll be legally separated and then divorced, all amicable.
So that's the deal (as much as I care to say about it anyway). Who knows what I'll talk about next. Maybe shoes. Yes, it will be shoes.
Oh, you think I'm kidding? Just you wait.
Shoes, man.
